Posts tagged bipolar

The Dark Place

The Dark Place

A depressive illness is not a sign of physical weakness, nor is it a condition that can be simply wished away

Black Sails, White Rabbits

Black Sails, White Rabbits

I was born manic‑depressive. It was only a matter of time. My fate was always to make a scene. The diagnosis was simply the last one on stage.

Spread a Little Sunshine

Spread a Little Sunshine

My family is happier. I’m happier. Yes, this is a recovery process but I no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel as an oncoming train. For me, that light is sunshine. I don’t have to ask where is the sunshine anymore. I’m seeing it peek through the clouds and just that alone is reason to continue.

The Calculating Mind: About Me

The Calculating Mind: About Me

I could see that my depression was something that you were taking personally… as if it was your job to ‘cheer me up’ and any failure was a personal one for you.

Not Recovered, But Still Trying

Not Recovered, But Still Trying

I don’t know where it comes from but I still get out of bed most days and manage to wash. Brushing my teeth in the shower helps just a tiny bit. Getting out for a walk helps a little more. Exercising with a personal trainer has got me to lose almost 20 kg in the last 6 months. I am learning the guitar and hope to revisit drawing which I was reasonably good at when I was at school. I’ve joined a band (I am quite a good drummer) and am trying to get out a bit more.

Bipolar Depression and Misdiagnosis

Bipolar Depression and Misdiagnosis

I was born in January 1964 an Aquarian…. I did really well at High School and left with 5 Highers (3A and 2B) I chose not to go to university and started working in Central Regional Council as a trainee accountant. This was not what I really wanted to do… actually would have liked to […]

Schizoaffective Disorder – From Shadow To Light

Schizoaffective Disorder – From Shadow To Light

I have schizoaffective disorder, but that is not who I am.

Grateful for My Life 7 Years Clean

Grateful for My Life 7 Years Clean

If you ask me to describe my life now the words that jump out at me are happy, content, grateful and peace. Rewind 7 years and ask me the same thing and what words come to mind? Terrified, lonely, dark, hell, hopeless, sad… Quite a change isn’t it? So I bet you want to know […]

Consumed By Fire: Fighting Back Against Bipolar Hypersexuality

Consumed By Fire: Fighting Back Against Bipolar Hypersexuality

When you think about bipolar recovery stories,  sexual addiction isn’t the first thing that comes to mind. On top of that, many people, including those suffering from it, are unaware of it at all. They don’t think it exists. For the most part, many people believe those who suffer use the term as an excuse. […]

How My 7-Year-Old Stops Me From Suicide

How My 7-Year-Old Stops Me From Suicide

Over the last few months, my 7-year-old daughter has been asking a lot of questions about death, dying, the soul, and heaven. The trigger was the opening scene in the movie UP, where Mr. Frederickson and his wife Ellie’s life history is briefly presented. This sequence always makes me cry. It’s a poignant story of […]