Posts tagged Panic

The Agoraphobic Life

The Agoraphobic Life

What the agoraphobic wants *normal* people to know: When I say I can’t go out I really can’t. For some reason my brain reacts as if it’s life threatening event. And what I experience is very similar to what everyone does when they start to pass away, scary huh? Imagine having those feelings through out […]

A Lifetime Of Misdiagnosis

A Lifetime Of Misdiagnosis

“Julie” was a close relative of mine. From the time I was little she tried several times to commit suicide, and was frequently depressed. When she wasn’t depressed she was my hero, but when she would get suicidal, I would have to become her caretaker. One day I discovered something that helped her change her […]

My Journey Through The Darkness

My Journey Through The Darkness

I knew I’d been running on fumes for months but I had to keep going anyway. There is always something to take care of but sometimes it can get so overwhelming you don’t know where to start and ultimately nothing gets done. I woke up on a Thursday morning and noticed I had what felt […]

Hate Will Not Win- Surviving Sadistic Child Abuse

Hate Will Not Win- Surviving Sadistic Child Abuse

Sadistic child abuse threatens a child’s safety and forever changes their psychology.  Many children do not recover and struggle with self injury, addiction, and severe mental health issues for the rest of their lives. Here is one woman’s account of how she survived, one step after another, and chose her health over hatred. I was […]

My Anxiety Disorder- The Best Worst Thing

My Anxiety Disorder- The Best Worst Thing

When I was in my early twenties, my husband had a heart attack at the age of 34.  I was terrified he would die, and that I would never see him again.   The truth was,  from that day on, I was never going to see myself again.   At least not that version of […]

Mindfulness- Understanding the Formation of Self

Mindfulness- Understanding the Formation of Self

Dedicated to Andrea McGill For those of us with PTSD/CPTSD brain chemicals, survival skills, expectations, grief and core beliefs are the components that form our very view of the world, circumstances around us and our own self-image. These factors are all interwoven and become who we are. For us, this view has become skewed. Like […]

Queen of Coping Tools- Mindfulness

Queen of Coping Tools- Mindfulness

After being diagnosed with anxiety and panic and having it completely take over my life , I was determined to learn everything I could find as possible ways to cope, rewire and rebuild a life I truly believed I deserved to live. Sounds silly but I got into yoga. Not bend like a pretzel yoga […]

From Frozen To Free- Recovering from Sexual Abuse

From Frozen To Free- Recovering from Sexual Abuse

It took me a very long time to speak the words, “I was sexually abused.” It took me an even longer time to believe it. And what took so much longer than I ever could have predicted was to believe that I was sexually abused…and it wasn’t my fault. I had heard this dozens and […]

Relaxation Exercise for Panic Attacks

Relaxation Exercise for Panic Attacks

During my worst period of anxiety and panic attacks last year, I did not have any support (I wish I had). Now that everything is over, I am able to think about it and write about it. Since I can not put my whole experiences into words, I made a manual guided because I have […]

Anxiety Stole My Identity, and I Stole it Back

Anxiety Stole My Identity, and I Stole it Back

I was always a bit of a worrying type of person growing up. I wanted to make my parents proud, be popular and excel and everything. Not a bad trait if you think about it. I did hold certain things too close to my heart. Rumors, gossiping, the normal teenage stuff. Didn’t have a traumatic […]